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ELOISA TO ABELARD.
Abelard and Eloisa Aourished in the twelfth century; they were two of the most distinguished persons of their age in learning and beauty, but for nothing more famous than for their unfortunate passion. After & long course of calamities they retired each to a several convent, and consecrated the remainder of their days to religion. It was many years after this separation that a letter of Abelard's to a friend, which contained the history of his misfortune, fell into the hands of Eloisa. This awakening all her tenderness, occasioned those celebrated letters (out of which the following is partly extracted), which give so lively a picture of the struggles of grace and nature, virtue and passion. IN these deep solitudes and awful cells,
Where heavenly-pensive contemplation dwells, And ever-musing melancholy reigns, What means this tumult in a vestal's veins? Why rove my thoughts beyond this last retreat ? Why feels my heart its long-forgotten heat? Yet, yet I love !-From Abelard it cane, And Eloïsa yet must kiss the name. A
Dear fatal name ! rest ever unreveal'd,
pass these lips, in holy silence seal'd:
Relentless walls! whose darksome round contains Repentant sighs, and voluntary pains':
Ye rugged rocks! which holy knees have worn ;
Soon as thy letters trembling I unclose,
Yet write, O write me all, that I may join Griefs to thy griefs, and echo sighs to thine. Nor foes nor fortune take this pow'r away; And is my Abelard less kind than they? Tears still are mine, and those I need not spare, Love but demands what else were shed in pray'r; No happier task these faded eyes pursue ; To read and weep is all they now can do.
Then share thy pain, allow that sad relief; Ah, more than share it, give me all thy grief. Heav'n, first taught letters for some wretch's aid, Some banish'd lover, or some captive maid ; They live, they speak,they breathe what love inspires, Warm from the soul, and faithful to its fires ; The virgin's wish without her fears impart, Excuse the blush, and pour out all the heart, Speed the soft intercourse from soul to soul, And waft a sigh from Indus to the Pole,
Thou know'st how guiltless first I met thy flame, When Love approach'd me under Friendship's name; My fancy form'd thee of angelic kind, Some emanation of the all-beauteous Mind. Those smiling eyes, attempering every ray, Shone sweetly lambent with celestial day. Guiltless I gaz'd; Heav'n listep'd while you sung ; And truths divine came mended from that tongue. From lips like those what precept fail'd to move? Too soon they taught me 'twas no sin to love : Back through the paths of pleasing sense I ran, Nor wish'd an angel whom I lov'd a man. Dim and remote the joys of saints I see; Nor envy them that heav'n I lose for thee.
How oft, when press'd to marriage, have I said, Curse on all laws but those which love has made ! Love, free as air, at sight of human ties, Spreads his light wings, and in a moment flies. Let wealth, let honour, wait the wedded dame, August her deed, and sacred be her fame ; Before true passion all those views remove; Fame, wealth, and honour! what are you to love? The jealous god, when we profane his fires; Those restless passions in revenge inspires, And bids them make mistaken mortals groan, Who seek in love for aught but love alone. Should at my feet the world's great master fall, Himself, his throne, his world, I'd scorn 'em all : Not Cæsar's empress would I deign to prove; No, make me mistress to the man I love ; If there be yet another name more free, More food than mistress, make me that to thee! O, happy státe! when souls each other draw, When love is liberty, and nature law: All then is full, possessing and possess'd, No craving void left aching in the breast : Ev’n thought meets thought, ere from the lips it part, And each warm wish springs mutual from the heart. This sure is bliss (if bliss on earth there be), And once the lot of Abelard and me.
Alas, how chang'd! what sudden horrors rise ! A naked lover bound and bleeding lies! Where, where was Eloïse ? her voice, her hand, Her poniard had oppos'd the dire command. Barbarian, stay ! that bloody stroke restrain ; The crime was common, common be the pain. I can no more ; by shame, by rage suppress'd, Let tears and burning blushes speak the rest.
Canst thou forget that sad, that solemn day, When victims at yon altar's foot we lay? Canst thou forget what tears that moment fell, When, warm in youth, I bade the world farewell? As with cold lips I kiss'd the sacred veil, The shrines all trembled, and the lamps grew pale: Heav'n scarce believ'd the conquest it survey'd, And saints with wonder heard the vows I made. Yet then, to those dread altars as I drew, Not on the cross my eyes were fix'd, but you : Not grace, or zeal, love only was my call, And if I lose thy love, I lose my all. Come! with thy looks, thy words, relieve my woe; Those still at least are left thee to bestow. Still on that breast enamour'd let me lie, Still drink delicious poison from thy eye, Pant on thy lip, and to thy heart be press'd ; Give all thou canst-and let me dream the rest. Ah no ! instruct me other joys to prize, With other beauties charm my partial eyes ; Full in my view set all the bright abode, And make my soul quit Abelard for God.
Ab think at least thy flock deserves thy care, Plants of thy hand, and children of thy pray'r. From the false world in early youth they fled, By thee to mountains, wilds, and deserts led. You rais'd these hallow'd walls; the desert smild, And paradise was open'd in the wild. No weeping orphan saw his father's stores Our shrines irradiate, or emblaze the floors ; No silver saints, by dying misers giv'n, Here brib'd the rage of ill-requited heava:
But such plaid roofs as piety could raise, And only vocal with the maker's praise. In these lone walls (their day's eternal bound), These moss-grown domes with spiry turrets crown'd, Where awful arches make a noon-day night; And the dim windows shed a solemn light; Thy eyes diffus'd a reconciling 'ray, And gleams of glory brighten'd all the day. But now no face divine contentment wears, Tis all blank sadness, or continual tears. See how the force of others' pray’rs I try, (O pious fraud of amorous charity !) But why should I on others' pray’rs depend ? Come thou, my father, brother, husband, friend! Ab let thy handmaid, sister, daughter, move, And all those tender names in one, thy love! The darksome pines that o'er yon rocks reclin'd Wave high, and murmur to the hollow wind, The wandering streams that shine between the lills, The grots that echo to the tinkling rills, The dying gales that pant upon the trees, The lakes that quiver to the curling breeze; No more these scenes my meditation aid, Or, lull to rest the visionary maid : But o'er the twilight groves and dusky caves, Long-sounding isles and intermingled graves, Black Melancholy sits, and round her throws A death-like silence, and a dread repose : Her gloomy presence saddens all the scene, Shades every flow'r, and darkens every green, Deepens the murmur of the falling floods, And breathes a browner horror on the woods.
Yet here for ever, ever must I stay ; Sad proof how well a lover can obey ! Death, only death, can break the lasting chain; And here, ev'n then, shall my cold dust remain ; Here all its frailties, all its flames resign, And wait till 'tis no sin to mix with thine.
Ah wretch ! believ'd the spouse of God in vain, Confess'd within the slave of love and man.