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Not Cssar's empress would I deign to provej"
'So, make me mistress to the man I love.
If there be 5et another name more free,
More fond than mistress, make me that to thee!
Oh, happy fate! when souls each other draw,
When love is liberty, and nature law:
All then is full, possessing and possess'd,
Jso craving void left aching in the breast:
Ev'n thought meets thought, ere from the lips it
part,

And each warm wish springs mutual from the heart.
This sure is bliss (if bliss on earth there be)
And once the lot ol Abelard and me.

Alas, how chang'd! what sndden horrors rise!
A naked lover bound and bleeding lies!
Where, where was Eloi'se! her voice, her hand,
Hsr poniard had oppos'd the dire command.
Barbarian, stay! that bloody stroke restrain;
The crime was common, common be the pain.
I can no more; by shame, by rage suppress'd,
Let tears and burning blushes speak the rest.

Canst thou forget that sad, that solemn day. When victims at yon altar's foot we lay? Canst thou forget what tears that moment fell, When, warm in youth, I bade the world farewel t Aa with cold lips 1 kiss'd the sacred veil, The shrines all trembled and the lamps grew pale: Heaven scarce believ'd the conquest it survey'd, And saints with wonder heard the vows I made. Yet then, to those dread altars as I drew, !Not on the cross my eyes were fix'd, but you: Not grace, or zeal, love only was my call; And if I lose thy love, I lose my all. Come, with thy looks, thy words, relieve my woe; Those still at least are left thee to bestow. Still on that breast enamour'd let me lie, Still drink delicious poison from thy eye, Pant on thy lip, and to thy heart be press'd; Give all thou canst- and let me dream the rest.

Ah, iiQ! instruct me other joys to prute.
With other beanties charm my partial eyes,
Full in my view set all the bright abode,
And make my soul quit Abelard for God.

Ah! think at least thy flock deserves thy care,
Plants of thy hand, and children of thy prayer.
From the false world in early youth they fled,
By thee to mountains, wilds, and deserts led.
You rais'd these hallow'd walls; the desert smil'd.
And paradise was open'd in the wild.
No weeping orphan saw his father's stores
Our shrines irradiate, or emblaze the floors;
No silver saints, by dying misers given,
Here bribe the rage of ill-requited Heaven;
But such plain roofs as piety could raise,
And only vocal with the Maker's praise.
In these lone walls (their day's eternal bound)
These moss-grown domes with spiry turrets crown'd,
Where awful arches make a noon-day night,
And the dim windows shed a solemn light;
Thy eyes diffus'd a reconciling ray.
And gleams of glory brighten'd all the day.
But now no face divine contentment wears,
'Tis all blank aadness, or continual tears.
See how the force of others' prayers I try,
(O pious frand of amorous charity !)
But why should I on others' prayers depend?
Come thou, my father, brother, husband, friend f
Ah, let thy handmaid, sister, danghter, move,
And all those tender names in one, thy love f
The darksome pines that o'er yon rocks reclin'd
Wave high, and murmur to the hollow wind,
The wandering streams that shine between the hills,
The grots that echo to the tinkling rills,
The dying gales that pant upon the trees,
The lakes that quiver to the curling breeze;
No more these scenes my meditation aid,
Or lull to rest the visionary maid:
But o'er the twilight groves and dusky caves,
Long-sounding aisles, and intermingled graves,

Black melancholy sits, and round her throws
A death-like silence, and R dread repose;
Her gloomy presence saddens all the scene,
Shades every flower and darkens every green,
Deepens the murmur of the falling floods, •
And breathes a browner horror on the woods.

Yet here for ever, ever must I stay;
Sad proof how well a lover can obey!
Death, only death, can break the lasting chain;
And here, ev'n then, shall my cold dust remain;
Here all its frailties, all its flames resign,
And wait till 'tis no sin to mix with thin*.

Ah, wretch! believ'd the spouse of God in vain, Confess'd within the slave of love and man. Assist me, Heaven! but whence arose that prayer? Sprung it from piety, or from despair? Ev'n here where frozen chastity retires, Love finds an altar for forbidden firc». I ought to grieve, but cannot what 1 ought; I mourn the lover, not lament the fault; 1 view my crime, but kindle at the view, Repent old pleasures, and solicit new; Now turn'd to heaven, I weep my past offence, Now think of thee, and curse my innocence. Of all affliction tanght a lover yet, 'Tis sure the hardest science to forget! How shall I lose the sin, yet keep the sense, And love th' offender, yet detest th' offence? How the dear object from the crime remove, Or how distinguish penitence from love Unequal task! a passion to resign, For hearts so touch'd, so piere'd, so lost as mine! Ere such a soul regains its peaceful state, How often must it love, how often hate! How often hope, despair, resent, regret, Conceal, disdain—do all things but forget! But let heaven seiae it, all at once 'tis fir'd: Not touch'd, but rapt; not waken'd, but inspir'd! Oh, come, O teach me nature to subdue, Renounce my love, my life, myself—and yon.

Fill my fond heart with God alone, for he
Alone can rival, can succeed to thee.

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot;
The world forgetting, by the world forgot!
Eternal sun-shine of the spotless mind;
Each prayer accepted, and each wish resign'd;
Labour and rest that equal periods keep;
* Obedient slumbers that can wake and weep
Desires compos'd, affections ever even;
Tears that delight, and sighs that Wah to heaven.
Grace shines around her with serenest beams,
And whispering angels prompt her golden dreams.
For her th unfading rose of Eden blooms,
And wings of seraphs shed divine perfumes;
For her the spouse prepares the bridal ring;
For her white virgins hymenaeals sing;
Tasounds of heavenly harps she dies away,
And melts in visions of eternal day.

Far otiier dreams my erring soul employ,
Far other raptures of unholy joy:
"When, at the close of each sad, sorrowing day,
Fancy restores what vengeance suatch'd away.
Then conscience sleeps, and leaving nature tree,
All my loose soul unbounded springs to thee.

0 curst, dear horrors of all-conscious night!
How glowing guilt exalts the keen delight!
Provoking demons all restraint remove,
And stir within me every source of love.

1 hear thee, view thee, gaze o'er all thy charms,
And round thy phantom glue my clasping arms*
I wake:—no more 1 hear, no more I view,

The phantom flies me, as unkind as yon.

I call alond; it hears not what 1 say:

I stretch my empty arms; it glides away.

To dream one* more, I close my willing eyes:

Ye soft illusions, dear deceits, arise! •

Alas, ho more! methinks we wandering go

Through dreary wastes, and weep each other's woe,

Where round some mouldering tow'r pale ivy creeps.

And low-brow'd rocks hang nodding o'er the deeps;

Sudden you mount, you beckon from the skies; Clonds interpose, waves roar, and winds arise. I shriek, start up, the same sad prospect find. And wake to all the griefs I left behind.

For thee the Fates, severely kind, ordain A cool suspense from pleasure and from pain; Thy life a long dead calm of fix'd repose; No pulse that riots, and no blood that glows. Still as the sea, ere winds were tanght to blow, Or moving spirit bade the waters flow; Soft as the slumbers of a saint forgiven. And mild as opening gleams of promis'd heaven*

Come, Abelard! for what hast thou to dread? The torch of Venus burns not for the dead. Nature stands check'd; religion disapproves; Ev'n thou art cold—yet Eloisa loves. Ah, hopeless, lasting flames! like those that burn To light the dead, and warm th' unfruitful urn.

What scenes appear where'er I turn my view J The dear ideas, where I fly, pursue, Rise in the grove, before the altar rise, Stain all my soul, and wantou in my eyes. I waste the matin lamp in sighs for ihee, Thy image steals between my God and rae, Thy voice I seem in every hymn to hear, With every bead I drop too soft a tear. When from the censer clonds of fragrance roll. And swelling organs lift the rising soul, One thought of thee puts all the pomp to flight, Priests, tapers, temples, swim before my sight: In seas of flame my plunging soul is drown'd, While altars blaze, and angels tremble round.

While prostrate here in humble grief I lie, Kind, virtnous drops just gathering in my eye, While, praying, trembling, in the dust I roll. And dawning grace is opening on my soul: Come, if thou dar'st, all charming as thou art! Oppose thyself to heaven; dispute my heart; Come, with one glance of those delnding eyea Blot out each bright idea of the skies;

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